Have you ever felt alone, I mean; completely alone? like no one else in the world existed except for you? I feel that way all the time, even in a room full of people I feel like no one knows who I am, sometimes I don't think I even know who I am; but one thing I'm certain of, I feel like I'm drowning, I am emotionally spent. I should be happy, I should be grateful for everything that I have; but I feel empty...I keep wondering, when will my time come? when will I feel full and satisfied? I just don't know. I do thank God everyday for everything that I have, because what I have is valuable, I know that; but it is not enough.
I feel like I lost something a very long time ago, and have never been able to find it; without it I can never be truly happy, complete, full, or satisfied...whatever it is people feel like when there's nothing else in the world they need.
Sometimes something happens and the empty feeling gets worse, and then something good happens and it gets better; but it never goes away, and I fear that it never will. I guess I'll just continue to pray, this is the reason why people need religion, something to believe in that's bigger than ourselves, even if in the end none of it it's true, our faith and belief is the thing that drives us; that pushes us forward and convinces us of the fact that we are strong and we can do anything.
hang in there everyone,
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